Sometimes life can feel really depressing. Don’t get me wrong, I had an awesome day today. I went to Arabic class for 5 hours with a teacher who I love dearly. Then she and I went to the stationary store. I love school supplies. (I know I might be a nerd but the week before school starts is the best time of the year for me.) Then I went to Tafseer (explanation of the Quran) class. Then I bought a friend a present and met up for ice cream. It was creamy fruity gelatos.. YUMM.
Then I came home after having been out for 10 hours (from 8 am – 6 pm) only to find all my roommates were all out. How lonely. So I ordered myself Egyptian pizza (fateer … BEST food EVER) and ate alone, quietly while checking my email. Then I got really bored so I watched some teenage wizard show from the Disney Channel. Yes I have TV on this side of the world … although it consists of seven channels that keep repeating and making ‘shshshsh’ noises.
But yea, I just feel sad. Probably from overworking myself. I think I need a break. From studying. From responsibilities (I’m leading a US/Canada study abroad group here). From the hot weather. I haven’t gone swimming in a week. (Yes I’m taking swimming lessons and I can finally swim without a float!!!)
So what shall I do? I’m thinking of taking a weekend off to myself and going to beach to relax. Or maybe I just need to sleep. My apartment is the ‘party’ apartment so people are always over till 3 in the morning. The doorman hates me. He thinks I’m a shady American girl. Sigh. Sometimes I go to Qur’an class holding my Quran in my hand up high so he can see it as I walk out the door. Whatever. I shouldn’t care what he thinks.
I rode a stallion in the desert two weeks ago. I forgot to write about it. My beautiful horse loved running so much that when I tried stopping him after 20 minutes he threw me off in anger. Stupid horse. I was cringing in pain for two whole days. But guess what? I still had to entertain people. So what do I do? Have a crazy dance party till 2 in the morning. Now my doorman must really hate me.
Ok I’m done venting for now. I promise my next post will be something amazing and inspiring. I’m just waiting for an epiphany to hit me. Or maybe it passed right by me and I didn’t take notice…