Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Err...

Sometimes life can feel really depressing. Don’t get me wrong, I had an awesome day today. I went to Arabic class for 5 hours with a teacher who I love dearly. Then she and I went to the stationary store. I love school supplies. (I know I might be a nerd but the week before school starts is the best time of the year for me.) Then I went to Tafseer (explanation of the Quran) class. Then I bought a friend a present and met up for ice cream. It was creamy fruity gelatos.. YUMM.

Then I came home after having been out for 10 hours (from 8 am – 6 pm) only to find all my roommates were all out. How lonely. So I ordered myself Egyptian pizza (fateer … BEST food EVER) and ate alone, quietly while checking my email. Then I got really bored so I watched some teenage wizard show from the Disney Channel. Yes I have TV on this side of the world … although it consists of seven channels that keep repeating and making ‘shshshsh’ noises.

But yea, I just feel sad. Probably from overworking myself. I think I need a break. From studying. From responsibilities (I’m leading a US/Canada study abroad group here). From the hot weather. I haven’t gone swimming in a week. (Yes I’m taking swimming lessons and I can finally swim without a float!!!)

So what shall I do? I’m thinking of taking a weekend off to myself and going to beach to relax. Or maybe I just need to sleep. My apartment is the ‘party’ apartment so people are always over till 3 in the morning. The doorman hates me. He thinks I’m a shady American girl. Sigh. Sometimes I go to Qur’an class holding my Quran in my hand up high so he can see it as I walk out the door. Whatever. I shouldn’t care what he thinks.

I rode a stallion in the desert two weeks ago. I forgot to write about it. My beautiful horse loved running so much that when I tried stopping him after 20 minutes he threw me off in anger. Stupid horse. I was cringing in pain for two whole days. But guess what? I still had to entertain people. So what do I do? Have a crazy dance party till 2 in the morning. Now my doorman must really hate me.

Ok I’m done venting for now. I promise my next post will be something amazing and inspiring. I’m just waiting for an epiphany to hit me. Or maybe it passed right by me and I didn’t take notice…

9 comments:

Cheryl said...

So what's so depressing about your life? And what's on an Egyptian pizza? I'm really interested..

Snake Charmer said...

hey we all go through periods of "dipping down" :D it'll pass, just relax in the knowing that all is truly well :))

Constructive Attitude said...

perhaps your just homesick? or maybe you just needed to take me along with you.

sigh.

Insha'Allah it'll get better. take that weekend to yourself and chillax yo.

Artistic Logic said...

i've always wanted gelato

bring me back some?

JennyMac said...

Hang in there...here's to future amazing things!

Mrs. Cullen said...

this is a sad post=( i'm sorry. do come back.
PS the show is called wizards of waverly place (don't act like you don't know the name you disney freak you ;-) )

EmptyWords said...

one of my dreams is to ride a horse

FutureGirl said...

Often, stressful situations fire us up like rockets and we do everything with hig effectiveness and high speed. However, once the stressful part is over and we go into relaxation mode, our bodies produce cortisol which makes us feel sad and emotional. Too much of this and you "burn out".

I say: don;t worry unless the sadness doesn't go away. But a strong bout of sad emotions here and there is healthy and normal in my opinion

Chuckle said...

It happens to the best of us.