There are days I drop words of comfort on myself like falling rain & remember it is enough to be taken care of by myself., originally uploaded by Rabujee.
I've been giving this summer a whole lot of excuses for arriving late, and it still hasn't come yet. I kept saying its only May, it'll be all colorful and lively soon. And now its June, so far nothing.
The bushes outside our house are kind of sickly, which BY THE WAY, its an art of its own trying to give shape to plants. I give a lot of credit to gardeners, I tried my hand at it a few hours ago...it's like cutting your own hair. You have no idea when to stop and when you do, its too late. My mom was pretty sad all the pretty parts of her bushes were gone. Its ok, they'll grow back in right?
Its really annoying though, to be the neighbor that doesn't have that great of a landscape. In my old house, we had a neighbor right next to us whose backyard was an EYESORE. It was basically a mini farm with plants in every spot the sun could reach... and then some. That also meant it was a few square feet of land with tons of flies, moths (not butterflies... MOTHS---the ugly cousin lol), mosquitoes, etc...
Anyways, I chose to always look towards the right when I stepped into my backyard in the old house. Now I feel like we're that neighbor. But actually I'm exaggerating, we're not that bad and we don't have a farm in the backyard. My mom does have a few tomato plants but they're off to the side. I'm just talking about our bushes, they're so unkempt. It bothers me.
That really wasn't the point of this post. Its something else that I've been thinking about lately... Is it just me, or do we all tend to take more interest in people who just aren't that interested in us? I keep analyzing my relationships and I think that's very true for me. I tend to make more effort with some who don't return it. And in some ways I'm guilty of neglecting those who take more interest in me. But I've changed that over the past few months, so I feel better in that sense. There's just one thing that makes me feel better about relationships like that. Last year, I attended this Islamic retreat over a course of three days. The lecturers gave us different perspectives on everyday life, and this one lecture was about the Islamic outlook on relationships. And one of the things I learned and ALWAYS keep with me is how easier our lives would be if we just didn't EXPECT anything from anyone. If we just went about doing our thing for others but not expecting anything in return. Do some good for someone and if they do good back to you then you'll be pleasantly surprised, but if they don't then you didn't miss anything because you never expected it in the first place. Its a genius idea but in reality very hard to apply. That's not to say it shouldn't be attempted. I think this post is more of a reminder for myself to apply that harder. When you master it, it really truly leaves you with more peace of mind.
Anyways, I just wonder why this is the case. Is it true for you guys as well? How do you handle it?
P.S. This photo is from a year ago and if you look really hard you can see the garage-livers I talked about in this post. Hehe =).