Sunday, March 15, 2009

Carry on Singin'

Over the past couple of weeks, approximately a billion people have told me that I'm a passive person.


People pleaser.

Someone who can never say No to others.


So, I have only one thing to say to all of them:


Do you think I'm stupid and don't realize this?

(Don't answer that. It was a rhetorical question)

I think I know myself better than anyone else. So obviously I already know that I can't say "No" to people.

(Unless you're like super close to me, in which case, you can't get a favor/question out before I say no.)

The reason for this could probably be traced back to my elementary days. In second grade I had a bully by the name of Ikeisha. (Her name now reminds me of Ikea) And she was SO mean to me. Physically and emotionally.

She used to always make me do her spelling tests. We used to switch papers. She would take mine, and I would take hers. That way neither one of us wouldn't look like we were not working. You would think she would try to help me out just a little by writing the words that she knew how to spell on my spelling test. Nope. At the end of the spelling test, I would have to rush and write down all of my words too while the teacher collected everyone's papers. I was basically stuck doing two spelling tests.

Whenever we had snacks, I had to give her mine.

She shared a piece of gum that was in her mouth with another girl. I gave them a disgusted look. And later had to pay the price for that look.

One time the teacher asked us who would like to switch group seating, and I was the first one to shoot my hand up. I did not want to sit by her anymore. She sent me a threatening note after that.

She punched me in the stomach and arm this one time. And I started crying. When the teacher asked me what was wrong, I said the boy that sits next to us hit me. Poor guy.

When third grade rolled around, I talked myself into trying to stand up to her. And told myself I wouldn't take ANY CRAP from her.

To my luck, she transferred schools.

I don't even know why I was scared of her. I'm sure I could've taken her down.

And I'm not writing this post to bash on her. Nor am I looking for any sympathy.

I'm just trying to figure myself out.

I guess.

And all this bullying talk made me want to share this video with you all.(A video that I've wanted to share for a long while) Andrew Johnston competed on the British version of "America's Got Talent" also known as "Britain's got Talent". (Go figure)In school, he got teased because of the songs he chose to sing and what not. When asked how he dealt with it, he said, I just "Carried on singin' ".

He has such an awesome voice.

It gives me shivers.

Anywho, check it out :D


*mary* said...

I hate bullies! I don't know how I am going to react if Violet ever encounters a bully like that. I'll have to control myself from shaking a gradeschooler. Lol.

Wow, that kid has serious pipes!

Mrs. D Lightful said...

I would rather be quiet than stir things up. People probably thing I'm a push-over too! Thanks for tagging me by the way, I will get to it as soon as possible!

Falling Up said...

guess whoooo's back!!!

I think you're too lazy to say no to people.

I never had a bully. But this girl in elementary school was mean to my ssiter so I get into a serious catfight with her. Scratching and everything. That's the only time I've fought. But now my sister is more protective of me.

Artistic Logic said...

u should sing the song

the old me is dead and gone
ull feel better

Youthful Wisdom said...

Now that you've have insight into your past you probably have a better understand of yourself. And what's more is that you can move on and overcome things in your personality like being passive because of it.

Next time someone asks you a favor that you can't do...just say No! Except if it's me of course.

MarjnHomer said...

lol we all had bullies in our lives. whether we are the bully or the one being bullied. they just make us stronger people in the end. just remember "what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger." or at least it should lol

provoking invoking said...

i'm the same way.. pushover unless its someone close to me, and i'm comfortable with. but not because of bullies.. i was a scary tomboy in grade school.

but i don't see it so much as being a pushover.. unless you really really can't control saying 'yes' to everything even if it goes against everything.

when it doesn't go against my morals, i think its ok to say yes to people. even if they don't appreciate it, you do everything for God, right?

right now i'm at this stage in life though, where i need to be just as good to my family/those close to me. its like having double standards against the people that actually deserve me to do every favor for them. and thats what i need to work on. otherwise its NOT for Allah, and just a compulsive behavior, or an irrational desire to have unimportant people like you.

i hope you get somethin from that.. i dont know how similar our situations are.

provoking invoking said...

ok so inconclusion: let people keep telling you your passive.. So what! just keep on being nice to people and following the golden rule, UNLESS it goes against your principles. cause your better than most people who are just about themselves.

Mutmainnah said...

I couldnt help but say/feel bad for you. Especially when you said you got punched in the stomach. Oh I oughta show that ikea some of my moves.