Sunday, July 13, 2008

Mrs. Cullen: The Hopeless Romantic

Dear Friends,

[This post might seem awkward or odd or random for some of you. But I don’t care because it is something that is on my mind.] What is love? No-- don’t get me wrong. I genuinely love my parents and my friends so much. They mean so much to me and I don’t know where I would be without them [well I kinda do know where I would be without my parents, not born of course]. And I completely understand and love my Creator [Allah; God] and the Prophet Muhammad (may peace and blessings be upon him) [the last of our many Prophets]. But [sadly] I am talking about the other kind of love. The love that our parents have for one another and that I [perhaps] will possibly have for someone. I just don’t get it. I don’t know what it is. How do I possibly love someone other than the above. As everyone knows, all I talk about is marriage. But I don’t know! When the day really comes when my moms like “Ok Bella, It’s time for us to find you a guy” OR “Is there someone you are interested in that is a doctor or engineer and a good Muslim and has a good family and we will like too??” I don’t know if I could do it. It might seem foolish to talk about but it confuses me.

The reason this came to my mind is because I was on face book..stalking a few white girls [no hard feelings..white people rock], one in particular. I know she broke up with her boyfriend recently but I was reading their past wall-to-walls and she is all like “I love you blah blah blah blah blah.” And I also know she dated someone else three years ago, and thanks to my part time job as a stalker, I remember her telling him the same things [but on MySpace]. That just got me to wonder. I thought love was a big deal. How can you love so many guys? I thought it was a strong feeling? I thought it was something special? I thought it just happens once. But I guess I just don't know what it is--that kind of love. Apparently, Miss White Girl does though. I should ask her.

The love I have for God, is indescribable. He is my Creator and He is the only know who knows me or anyone else and no matter how much I pray or worship Him [in anyway], I still know it is not enough and he deserves to be worshiped so much more and so much better [if that makes any sense]. And then there is the love for my parents. That, compared to the love of Allah, can be measured [I think..is that wrong for me to think]. I just mean, yes my parents brought me into this world and they work so I can live a great life and they raised me to be a smart girl and a good Muslim and a good person and yeah. I can show this. All I need to do is treat them well and follow everything [well mostly] they taught me and they will be happy with me. That’s pretty much it. Then there are my friends. Kinda the same as parents but a little more complicated. You have to try more to keep this relationship going because I think its harder to please your friends than it is to please your parents [you might disagree at first but if you think about it then you will know I am right..I always am]. But still, it can be done. All I need to do is listen to them and have them listen to me. Hang out and have a good time and keep my promises and be loyal. That’s not much. Ok, I am kinda off topic now. I was talking about love. Oh yeah. Love. Yeah. I love my friends because they bring out the best in me and I enjoy their company and I trust them completely and yeah. Then there is the other dude. How do you love someone--planned? By planned I mean, you need to get married [or want to] and then there is a guy and you gotta love him. The love for God is not planned, its natural [as is the love for my parents and friends]. I dunno. I think if all guys were like Edward Cullen [or Chris Brown] then it would be so easy to fall in love. Every girl would be a Bella or a Cinderella under her umbrella. I guess once I get married or something it’ll just be the same as loving my friends and my parents. I guess. So I guess I just answered my own question. I just don’t like boys. That’s simply it. Ok bye.

Yours for the sake of Peace, Love and Brotherhood,
Miss Cullen

13 comments:

Snake Charmer said...

I think that's a question allot of us ask ourselves every now and again: how do u love someone whose "planned"? For me, I try and think about the chemical-ness of it, and how our brains release certain love inducing chemicals to entice us into falling madly in love. But if you read on you find that the mad rush of love and such never lasts. It goes away and is either replaced by a need to find that feeling again or a deep and genuine affection and true loooove for the person :). SO I guess after all my babble i'm trying to say that true love never comes like "that" (imagine me snapping my fingers), it takes work and time- and that is natural. :o)

Falling Up said...

I think love like that is like the love betwen friends. Not the same way but develops in a similar way. You didn't love your BFF the first day you met them {most likely}. It took a while to get to know them and now you love them to pieces. Same thing here..it takes time and an effort to get to know each other. You end up growing in love, rather than falling in love. :)

Artistic Logic said...

umm i was gonna say what falling up said.... she took my words... i think it would really be like finding another bff...

Almost Close said...
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Almost Close said...

I also agree with falling up with love is something like what you have for a bff, but romantic love involves a physical and emotional attraction that is much much different than what you have for your best friend. Developing that love for a partner is definitely something that takes time and when it does happen, you'll know it and that whole concept of this love that is supposed to happen with this guy youre supposed to spend the rest of your life with will actually make sense and as corny as it sounds, eveything will fall into place (InshaAllah--> God willing).

Love is something that is very special, but I guess I can kinda see where where your stalkee can have more than one love because you (should) learn from each relationship that you have and try to stay away from any mistakes or anything that you found was wrong for you... also like best friend. I'm sure that we can all name at least one friend who was considered to be our bff but don't have the same friendship today, and Im sure that you were able to find someone else who you get along with a lot better and you can learn from each other a lot more that you now call your bff. But yeah, love is very special and I always hear that love after your first love can get tricky, so hopefully no one would have to learn to "fall" or "grow" in love with someone else. I dont think this made much sense but maybe you can kind of see what im trying to say :)

whitefawn87 said...

who is love... knowing me.. most people don't think i'm the sappy sort... but sadly enough... I admit it... I believe in love. tehehehe. But what is it? It's something that 1) needs to be worked for and 2) needs to be sustained. I do believe you can fall in love with someone, but it doesn't mean that the love will last, feelings can transfer, and there are degrees of love. Sure, we love our parents and friends and what not, but that 'special someone' well, the love between you, is what you make it to be. So, do I sound very 'rational' about love... hey, i'm not discounting the fluttery feelings and the butterflies, but again, love has its place and time, and the feelings can be there. So, what is true love? Well it's sacrifice, as long as you're willing to put yourself on the line for someone else, I believe that it's true love, let's just hope its reciprocal.
\\// PEACE

by the by, i'm feeling a love poem on the tips of my fingers.

controlled chaos said...

Blah...Love is for losers!!
Get A LIFE!! or another cat..
and what snake charmer said is true...when you like someone, your brain is releasing a hormone, then after some time, another begins to be released. This hormone,is the one responsible for that "madly in love" phase. But that hormone can't go on forever, max maybe it'll go on for three years or so, that's when you start noticing the little things that are annoying and not so perfect. The direction it takes after that depends on the couple.

It was my cousin that said, if you can get through your first 5 or 6 years of marriage then you're fine through the rest.

love is for losers!!!

Anonymous said...

i always like reading your posts :)

Mrs. Cullen said...

i like reading my posts too! promise. haha

controlled chaos said...

you are such a dork. Maybe it was Edward who commented..ooooohhhh

Mrs. Cullen said...

it was probably you or simply me

Rationality said...

I liked your blog and your way of narrating events let me kept reading your blog over and over till I realized that I spent more than what I expected LOL…
Anyways I know it's late but I found your blog by sudden. Plus I loved this topic... I don’t really know how do people affections and sentiments drifting them away by love but what I think is love has so many varieties in definitions and each person can define LOVE by his/her own way. The love that is ended with a silly dispute and not faithful at all is not a love. Love is a strong relationship which could not be broken it’s a relationship that grows stronger and stronger with time. What those blonds and white girls doing is just entertainment and wasting time end up with what you noticed (broken up) and the circle of their play starts playing again.
At the end thank God for being Muslim Arabian girl coz Arabians girls have nobility.
So do not put in mind the actions of crazy people…
Thanks for the enjoyable thread and BLOG

controlled chaos said...

Rationality-
While I am happy you like this blog and love that you enjoy reading it.
I disagree with something you said.

Maybe you meant it in another one way and I'm taking it another way.
But most of us authors are actually not Arab. Nor are one race of people considered "nobility" over another in Islam.

And I know you weren't trying to be demeaning when you said, "blond and white girls" but it kinda comes of that way. And while I agree dating etc., is something I don't agree with it, I know a lot of non-muslims, white and everything else, that actually agree me on that.

And similarly, I have family and friends that are muslim and "Blonde and white".

I'm sure it's just a misunderstanding in my part, and I kinda do get what you're saying, but anyways thank you for commenting and coming to our blog. :)