Sunday, January 10, 2010
Does anyone love their job?
Every Sunday evening, I feel this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's a feeling of dread and annoyance.
The next day is Monday.
Monday equals the beginning of the work week.
I want to be one of those people that absolutely loves their job, and cant get enough of it. However, I dont want to be obsessed with it to the point where my entire life revolves around it and I'm not able to have a social life in any shape or form. But I dont want to dread the next day and the early morning as much as I do.
I'm so blessed to have a job right now, grateful to be earning, and being able to help out my family in some sort of way. But it sucks to begin a work week over when you just had a nice weekend of R&R.
I know that being a teacher is a rewarding job. The reward part of it comes much later on, towards the end of the year, when teachers are so burnt out, they can't really be bothered to notice the improvements and gains that students have made, and the knowledge that students have acquired.
Some days I force myself to repeat over and over in my head, "Alhamdullilah I have a job." Literally. Over and over and over and over and over. I need that constant reminder in my head to get through each day. Please dont misinterpret what I'm saying as me being unhappy at my job, it's great when I'm actually working, but sometimes I rather just sit at home all day and be a bum, read a book, or watch a movie. Which I know everyone would also want to.
But is there anyone out there that genuinely loves their job and it brings them pleasure to begin the work week? Someone who doesn't feel a sense of apprehension when thinking of the work week?
If so, I envy them.