Friday, December 25, 2009
These are my confessions
Whoever created the website, Post Secret, is a genius. It sucks though, because sometimes I look at some of these websites and really think that if I was faster, then I would have been that genius.
Anyways, I kinda wanna send in some secrets there but I'm too cheap to buy a postcard and a stamp. Also I get paranoid that someone might find it and find out that its my secret and expose me to the entire world.
I mean, not that I have some deep dark secrets to get out of my system anyways. Maybe one or two that are semi interesting.
But not really.
Recently I've been thinking. I've been thinking a lot. I have nothing better to do seeing as my holiday vacation is being spent at home instead of out of town like everyone else who's in Toronto or Chicago or Texas or NYC or wherever the hell else people who go out of town go.
So here I am, thoughtful and all and thinking that it sucks when you drift away from certain people.
And I don't mean in the sense, like "Boohoohoo, we're not as close as we used to be" but in the sense like "Oh crap. I don't talk to him/her anymore, but she knows so much about me, what if he/she tells others."
Don't get me wrong, yeah its sad and you get emo and sentimental thinking about not being as close to someone as you once were.
But that's when you're PMS-ing.
When you're back in reality and fully in control of your emotions, though, then you're kicking yourself in the head for revealing so much about yourself to another individual.
And you wonder, "Can he/she keep a secret?"
Let's hope so.
The final Messenger of Allah, Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) says: If anyone removes (one of the) anxieties of this world from a believer, God will remove (one of the) anxieties from him on the Day of Resurrection; if one smooths the way for one who is destitute, God will smooth the way for him in this world and the next; and if anyone conceals the faults of a Muslim, God will conceal his faults in this world and the next. God helps a man as long as he helps his brother. If anyone pursues a path in search of knowledge God will thereby make easy for him a path to paradise. (Muslim).
I have/had family/friends that know certain events, incidents, or stories about my life that many don't know.However it comes a time though, when you literally pick and choose who you don't tell things to. Not because you don't trust them but because you would just rather be safe then sorry.
Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, ‘Guard your affairs by concealing your secrets, for indeed every blessing has one who will envy it.’
Right now, there are about a handful of people that I know I can be completely honest with and know that if we were to go our separate ways, whatever I left with them would be safe.
Now is it wrong to conceal things about yourself for fear of it being revealed?? Whether it be intentionally or accidentally???
Personally, I dont think so.
I feel like others would disagree. Actually I know others would disagree. Because others have disagreed. I don't ask to know personal things about others. Yeah I want to know but that's just my nosy side. Do I constantly pester them to tell me? Maybe. Sometimes. But if they truly didn't want me to know, I would leave it at that. It really bothers me though, when the roles are reversed. You didn't want to tell me, I respected that. Now you respect me.
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel like I need to watch what I say these days. And to whom I say it to.
I wish I didn't have to feel this way. And its nothing personal against anyone. Just me and my thoughts and probably some over-analysis on my part..
To each his own though, right?
P.S. Here are some post cards from Post Secret that I found amusing: