Friday, December 25, 2009

These are my confessions


Whoever created the website, Post Secret, is a genius. It sucks though, because sometimes I look at some of these websites and really think that if I was faster, then I would have been that genius.

Anyways, I kinda wanna send in some secrets there but I'm too cheap to buy a postcard and a stamp. Also I get paranoid that someone might find it and find out that its my secret and expose me to the entire world.

I mean, not that I have some deep dark secrets to get out of my system anyways. Maybe one or two that are semi interesting.

But not really.

Recently I've been thinking. I've been thinking a lot. I have nothing better to do seeing as my holiday vacation is being spent at home instead of out of town like everyone else who's in Toronto or Chicago or Texas or NYC or wherever the hell else people who go out of town go.

So here I am, thoughtful and all and thinking that it sucks when you drift away from certain people.

And I don't mean in the sense, like "Boohoohoo, we're not as close as we used to be" but in the sense like "Oh crap. I don't talk to him/her anymore, but she knows so much about me, what if he/she tells others."

Don't get me wrong, yeah its sad and you get emo and sentimental thinking about not being as close to someone as you once were.

But that's when you're PMS-ing.

When you're back in reality and fully in control of your emotions, though, then you're kicking yourself in the head for revealing so much about yourself to another individual.

And you wonder, "Can he/she keep a secret?"

Let's hope so.

The final Messenger of Allah, Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) says: If anyone removes (one of the) anxieties of this world from a believer, God will remove (one of the) anxieties from him on the Day of Resurrection; if one smooths the way for one who is destitute, God will smooth the way for him in this world and the next; and if anyone conceals the faults of a Muslim, God will conceal his faults in this world and the next. God helps a man as long as he helps his brother. If anyone pursues a path in search of knowledge God will thereby make easy for him a path to paradise. (Muslim).


I have/had family/friends that know certain events, incidents, or stories about my life that many don't know.However it comes a time though, when you literally pick and choose who you don't tell things to. Not because you don't trust them but because you would just rather be safe then sorry.

Prophet Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) said, ‘Guard your affairs by concealing your secrets, for indeed every blessing has one who will envy it.’


Right now, there are about a handful of people that I know I can be completely honest with and know that if we were to go our separate ways, whatever I left with them would be safe.

Now is it wrong to conceal things about yourself for fear of it being revealed?? Whether it be intentionally or accidentally???

Personally, I dont think so.

I feel like others would disagree. Actually I know others would disagree. Because others have disagreed. I don't ask to know personal things about others. Yeah I want to know but that's just my nosy side. Do I constantly pester them to tell me? Maybe. Sometimes. But if they truly didn't want me to know, I would leave it at that. It really bothers me though, when the roles are reversed. You didn't want to tell me, I respected that. Now you respect me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I feel like I need to watch what I say these days. And to whom I say it to.

I wish I didn't have to feel this way. And its nothing personal against anyone. Just me and my thoughts and probably some over-analysis on my part..

To each his own though, right?

P.S. Here are some post cards from Post Secret that I found amusing:










16 comments:

Youthful Wisdom said...

This was a really good post! Sometimes its hard to figure out who to trust with yourself fully and who not to. But on the other hand its important to be open with people, to be real, to be yourself so that they can appreciate you in your entirety.

Maureen@IslandRoar said...

I'm much older (48), and I feel as I've gotten older I just don't share as much. The need is not as great, and I don't think of it as keeping myself from people. Maybe I just share different things.
This post was wonderful, thought provoking and insightful.

AL said...

hmm this better not be about me

EmptyWords said...

I think the same way... almost exactly

Abdallah said...

Assalamu alaikum, One of my favorite PostSecret posts was from a sister who said something to the effect of her converting in part because she looked good in hijab. Kind of turns all those beauty conventions upside down--in an awesome way.

The other thing is thanks for the reminder to cover the secret. Gossip isn't good for anyone.

Mrs. Cullen said...

<3

Sarah Alaoui said...

i really enjoyed this post especially this

Guard your affairs by concealing your secrets, for indeed every blessing has one who will envy it.’

my mom always warns me about this
unfortunately sometimes the only person you should look out for is yourself bc there will always be someone out there who is jealous of you etc

Faith said...

Prophet Mohammad PBUH says
“Get the help of secrecy for your pending matters to be done. As every blessed one is envied”
I’ve learnd to not disclose any step I’m about to do to any body unless I’m completely done. I used to trust too much now.. I know myself better I can't see why would any body wish ME good luck lol

linlah said...

I loved the quote from the Prophet Muhammad. And a secret is not a secret if you tell someone.

Heckety said...

You really made me think with this post, because I never trust anyone with anything! How paranoid is that?
I really like the quotes you used, they made me think too.

Sadiyah said...

lol some of them are pretty funny
thnks for the link

kirstyb said...

happy holidays x

Mutmainnah said...

I am going to go visit that blog.

Fatima said...

Thank you ever so much for this post! You're the first blogger that I've seen who has featured 'post secret' on their blog, I absolutely love that website! Thank you again!

interruptingmydreams said...

Great post, Miss CA! I've also wondered about this before. I'd have to say that I've become more reserved in the past few years because of the fact that people I trusted betrayed that trust. It sucks, going from being super close to someone to wondering whether they'll reveal your secrets out of spite. :(

And PostSecret is one of my favorite sites! There was an event at UM not that long ago (http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=107469192412).

supreem said...

this is really interesting. trust is such a difficult issue, but in the end there will always be some sort of outlet to share through.