Wednesday, December 22, 2010

I can’t remember who my childhood hero was. I am pretty sure it was one of the power rangers. I was a big fan. And then as I grew a little older I thought my sister was the coolest person. And then it was my dad. Now…I don’t know. I am still my dad’s no. 1 fan.

But here and there you find a few people who you think are so cool. Or maybe not that cool, but they do have some amazing traits or abilities. I go through phases where I think so-and-so is so cool and I wish I could do this-or-that like him/her.

There is one person who I always thought was so cool. We didn’t always get along, but still, there was something about her that I adored. I liked how she is very smart, simple and not a follower. She has her own style. And I don’t mean clothing style (but that too). I just mean everything about her. The way she carried herself. And the things she did or did not do.

And its odd because I don’t get along with this person at all. I guess you can say we are not friends—by choice. Yet, I still admire her. Is that odd?

Anyway, recently I heard she stopped doing the things that she always stood up for. And it made me so sad. I think of myself as a weak, quitter and I hate when other people quit something that they once felt so strongly about. It’s kept me so bummed out for weeks. But I think I learned something from this. I think I need to stop living my dreams through other people. I think I can try to be the person that I always wanted her to be, inshallah.


Constructive Attitude said...

I liked the last two sentences <3

Chuckle said...


Youthful Wisdom said...

Yea...its hard to have people you look up to or think are so cool stop what they're doing. I try to look at those who've passed already but what they did was amazing...that way they can't let you down :)

Btw...I get super confused when there's no title .. like really really confused.

Constar said...

oh its not weird at all! there was this girl i used to know, truthfully i just didnt understand her socially.

But at the same time i respected her for being that person regardless of what anyone else thought, i would have been too concerned with the audiences reaction to say the things she had the balls to say, and to stick to her points!

great ending to the post though! it would be nice to be the person youd be the biggest fan of.

ladytruth said...

I find that the people I admire are not always the people I like; maybe cause I want to aspire to be a little like them or have some quality they possess? Thanks for the post; it made me think back to my childhood heroes :)

Kate said...

Yes you can!

I hope this season brings everyone happiness with friends and family and peace!

Anonymous said...


Anonymous said...

you guys didn't wish your christian readers a merry christmas. how rude.

PI said...

conforming is boring. i feel teenage angst lately...rebellion.

and i want to ride on horses everywhere. lol

and i agree with CA

marjnhomer said...

very true. in this world its so hard to be a leader rather than a follower.