Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Guess who's Back. Back again. Ramadan's Back. So tell a friend.
You are back, my friend. And it seems like you have come back so soon.
If I can be candid, I dont feel like I'm prepared for you this year. Actually, every year that you come I feel unprepared. It's not as if you have come out of nowhere. I have known for 11 months that you were approaching. And before you left last year, you more or less told me, I'll be back.
And so here you are again.
I feel like this time, it's a little harder having you around. The days are much, much, much longer than I have ever anticipated and expected. How will we spend our days together? Will I get bored and want to watch movies with you? Will I want time to go much faster so that we can eat and forget about the true reason you have come? Will I ignore your true purpose of being here? Will I try to teach others about your visit, try to tell them that during your time here, Muslims fast from dawn till dusk, not eating food or drinking water and abstaining from wrongful deeds such as backbiting and slandering. Will I push myself to worship God during your stay here? Or will I just sit around and do what I've been doing for the past 11 months? Nothing. Will I try to help the needy or remain selfish and help myself only. Will I want to party with my friends? Or will I want to worship/learn/engage in productive activities to increase our sisterhood and our Iman (faith) during this time.
Again, I knew this was coming, but it feels so soon. I still remember the days when you used to come in February, when the days were so much shorter. I also remember that during those visits, I was still a kid. Not yet a woman that had hit puberty and was obligated to host you. But once I did hit puberty, and I became acquainted with you, it was a little easier because I had not yet taken you so seriously (which I should have, so please forgive me) And the times when you used to come after daylight savings time were the best times EVER. When the sun used to set at like 5 p.m and the days used to go by so much faster because we would be in school. And it would be time to break our fast right when we got home.
Now you have become a summer guest. And I believe that you will be a summer guest for the next couple of years. I'm glad you're here. Dont get me wrong, but I just wished I did so much more before you got here.
However, regardless of when you come, or how soon/late you do, welcome back, you were missed, and I'm glad you are here. Let's make the most of this visit! God willing.