Friday, June 17, 2011

Tales of a Teacher: The end of the beginning

As the last days of school approached, I got very nostalgic. And when the last day of school finally arrived, I felt sad and nostalgic. And as the day went on, and I thought about the past year, I felt as if everything was bittersweet.

I dont remember how last year's last day of school was, I dont remember feeling this sad and emotional about my kids leaving me. I didnt cry, but I sure did feel an emptiness. You would think I would have felt it more last year. After all that was my first class ever.

But something about this year and the kids of this year was different. And maybe I'll feel this way every year, or every other year. Or maybe never again.

I just know that this was a difficult year in so many ways. And I think part of the struggle of this year, left me clinging on to the students who distracted me from it all.

And as much as I whine and complain about my kids in so many different ways, shape, and form--- this job, this profession, this career and especially these children, are sometimes my secret haven away from the (sometimes harsh) realities of life.

7 comments:

Rationality said...

You just said it "the end of the beginning"; its life nature; we meet people. Then suddenly they walk away regardless of how intimate is our bond; we grieve for some time till we could smile when we remember them then we meet new folks and so on...
Wish you the best my dear :)

Artistic Logic said...

i did not know you felt this way this time =\
i think its a good thing though! hopefully you enjoyed the year and now you can relaxxxx

Softly Spoken said...

Cute post :)

linlah said...

Maybe you're finding your groove with teaching and that's why you felt that way. I'd say that's a good thing.

Little Auntie said...

I so know what you mean. I teach at an institution though so my courses are only 7 weeks long but I always get a little nostalgic when I start teaching the 'last lesson'...I can't imagine how nostalgic I'd get, if I taught the students for a whole year...

supreem said...

lol i know exactly how you feel. wow.

Margie said...

Love when you said, "these children are sometimes my secret haven away from the (sometimes harsh) realities of life.
I used to teach and loved the kids!

Margie :)