For most of my life, I have found that I shy away from many things. I'm very timid and with respect to my students, I cant talk in large gatherings. I cant sing in front of most people. And I will definitely never act in front of anyone. Ever.
During 11th grade literature class in high school, we were required to read Frankenstein by Mary Shelley . And during that time, the required assignment happened to be an acting session. Each group of students was required to act out a scene from Frankenstein in front of the class. And then we had to do the same thing with another novel written by Richard Wright, Black Boy.
I skipped school both days, feigning a fever, and dont recall what ended up happening with regards to my grade. Obviously I passed though. Alhamdulilah.
Although it is a common joke between my friends and I, constantly making things "me, me, me", I have a very hard time being the center of attention.
I dont know how to react.
I dont know what to say.
And I dont know what to do with my hands and mouth! My mouth is always hanging open and my hands are always clenched in a weird gesture.
And I continuously have a nauseous feeling and a feeling of wanting to throw up.
Once upon a time, I thought I would get over this shyness.
Yeah, not so much.
Currently I've found myself thinking about an upcoming event in which I have to literally be on a stage. Not so much acting while up there, but up there nonetheless. In front of a group of people. Combine that with a numerous other thoughts floating in my head, and you have a very queasy Constructive Attitude.
And here we go again with the whole "I want to throw up" feeling.
And this time, I cant really skip the event.
Although it would be funny if I did.
Elohel.
4 comments:
i love the ending, so much suspense. ILY
Put in headphones underneath your scarf at this event... maybe that'll help. Lol :)
I used to be very shy but over the years I go over it!
Now, I can be a real chatter-box and can even do well speaking in large groups.
I wish you well at the upcoming event.
Good advice from Youthful Wisdom.
Margie :)
I felt the same way. But when you finally get up there: IT IS ALL ABOUT YOU. I was thinking about myself the whole time LOL. And food. Maybe that's why I dont remember anything from that day.
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